conversation with myself.

still waiting.
for what?
I dunno

But i feel it's about time now, however, nothing. My body is so uncooperative.
So then... what?
I dont know, what else is there, wait some more? I've already undone what i did, and shouldntve done since a beginning... but still nothing. It just wont go away.
Okay, so you undid that. Doesnt that make you feel better?
Yes, of course it does, it lifted a heavy weight from myself.
But...
But, i must have had a ton of weight, because its still weighing me down. I confess, not as much as it used to, but it still does, and i can tell my mind to forget and I can make my body not ache, but only for a certain amount of time. I dont have that sort of control, although I wish i did. It's back now, and I cant get rid of it.
What is it?
I dont know, this feeling, this weird feeling of... I dont know what to call it...
hm..