Lazy Monday,

A good day to call in sick into work... A good day to stay in bed and think... It's so grey here in toronto this morning, and from the look outside my window, it seems the weather's also cold and unforgiving of bare skin.

I've been thinking alot lately, when Im alone. I think about my quietness when in large groups, about my odd extroversion in smaller ones... I think about my good qualities and bad. I think about others too...

These past few weeks I've been seeing alot of people... in just this past months I've seen people i hadn't seen in years before... I was going to name them, but there's not really a point, not that THEY are even aware this blog exists, or that anyone that would actually stumble across this blog would know who they are, except names, that perhaps give some light hint to their ethnicities... but people are so much more than that.
Going back to the point, I found time has gone by so fast, in this way, but the times I shared with them went by so slow, like they were being recorded in my mind...
And it's weird how time works... it takes alot from us, yet it takes so little in the fraction of our lives.
So use it wisely.

It's funny because this year I've also been less forgiving of others... My motto used to be to hang onto undesireable people, but from a distance, just to keep tabs... of what they're up to (just in case). But as I've grown older, and had to part with those I love, I've felt less forgiving for those who have wronged me. If I can live 2+ years not knowing of the whereabouts or conditions of one of the most important loves my young life had yet experienced, then why would I bother keeping less important people around. It doesn't really make any sense, makes them seem like insignificant specs, and therefore should be of no consequence at all.
At the end of the day, when all's been said and done the question I should ask myself is: Who are you to me? And if it can be answered meaningfully by me, then it's worth holding on to. If not, then it's Good bye, Jack. (hit the road)

ANyway, going back to the people that matter. Make sure you spend as much time possible with them, or stay connected via letters, emails, anything. Time doesnt go by in vain... and what doesnt grow weak, only grows stronger.


So a word of advice... those that arent worth your time, have probably wasted ENOUGH of it. So dont let them get any more of it and cut them out completely. SNIP SNIP. And never look back *i do believe in second chances, but not third or fourth ones* And for the ones that still hold a dear place in your heart, despite everything, do what you can to keep the flame of care and friendship alive.

My two cents for today, and Im off to Nova Vera for a nice warm capuccino and maybe a sandwich :)

Enjoy your day.