It's funny how when one door closes, another one opens.
Sometimes, i think, its not a matter of the door closing, but you locking it once it is closed.
I can feel the changes already. The way I evaluate things around me, others and myself. I can truly say things this past month have definitely turned around, and as much as im sure fate has something to do with it. Alot I feel has been magnetised or brought upon me by my actions. Like I always said, ever since physics class, for every action there is a reaction.
I will try to continue being true to myself and seek for something real, no matter how long it takes... Something real and lasting. My goal for this year is onto the healing process with myself, no longer yearning for things that were and no longer are. Accepted the past, just like before and now I have to work on healing and putting my walls down with people, stop being so cold, trust, extend my hand to those that try to reach for mine... not everyone i touch I will hurt, nor will everyone that touches me hurt me in the same way again, and even if they do, then so be it. I do believe I have endured the worst heartbreak... and nothing I get myself into can ever be as bad.
The question in my head is... if it can never be as bad, will it ever be as good?
I must have faith. And be hopeful...
It wont ever be as good if I dont let it. But this will take time, and I plan to give myself all the time in the world. I've learnt from my past, and will not make the same mistakes again, the only battle weapon I can carry along with me on each battle is hope, blind hope and Love.
So lets have a toast to Love, Courage and Hope to feel alive again...
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